Singles night out... so that meant me.. and Cho2x out on an iceskating date. As it turned out the icequeen can be a big bitch... no iceskating after 8pm on a Friday night!!!! Blame it on the hockey freaks. Even the moviewhore was indeed a whore, the cinema was quite packed. As we stayed true to our own tradition, we found some place where the beer was cheap. We ended up in this beer place serving chinese food. Perfect choice! Hhehehe.
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We had one liners for the night. 4 main questions... what part of your life you wanted to go back to (about love or life) and what part of your life you wanted to change (about love or life). We never got to that point of sharing about what part in your life you wanted to change bcos the resto was closing early.
* That one moment I wanted to go back to and that one moment I wanted to change (about love) is all about the same person. You can't blame me. I loved him too much. We were together for a long time that it became too comforting to be in each other's arms no matter how flawed that was. But at least he made an exit that wasn't too painful for me. He left quietly... he left without saying goodbye. But in the end I'm thankful bcos he did that. I just wish that after the drama I didn't have to find out certain things about him bcos it did hurt like hell after. The next time I see him I want a moment to slap him in the face and shout at him bcos I AM ENTITLED TO THAT.
* That one moment I wanted to go back to and that one moment I wanted to change (about life) happened around the same time in my life. I was telling Cho2x, everytime I feel down I want to replay a part of my life over and over again. It was the first time I ever owned a bike... and it was the same excitement and happiness when I went home with an aquarium in my room! My bike! I loved my bike! It's the same reason why I still love riding bikes even at this age. It was a white one with training wheels and multi-colored neon tassels at the side of each handle. My father taught me how to ride a bike... and I will aways want to replay that girl going down the road with a father waiting in the end. After 15 years, it is still as painful actually. I don't know why but my chest tightens everytime. On the other hand, that one moment I wanted to change was when he died early or the part that happened afterwards... I hated it. I only had 4 years with him... since anything memory before 5 years old is bullshit. I don't even remember any of it!
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Drama! Haha. Blame it on the alcohol last Friday night. Two alcoholics speaking. Haha.
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