LEGALLY BLAND *

My guy classmate told me "Pag natanggal ka naman sa lawschool, there is fashion school waiting for you". Being the ultimate bitch that I am... I told him "If matatanggal ako, I'll make sure mauuna ka". He left a year earlier and I had another year to hang on to the tidal waves. People can be mean in school. I don't know why they are mean and ruthless. But they are.

The cool kids had to leave early. The cute guys left early. The maiingay and the fun people left early. I was stuck with people who had nothing to do but gossip, hide notes and sample exams, & those who mislead you with what article number the discussion ended. They fool you about the number of cases they've read or the scope of the subject matter they've mastered. They make you feel very studious cos when you ask them "Natapos mo?" they'd answer, "Wala akong alam". Bravo. But when they are called for recitation, you will know they were just horseshitting you awhile ago. This bitch practically knows everything.


I never had to pretend that I mastered everything. I know once I stand up for recitation my mind goes blank. I hate being put in the spot. Every time I recite, my knees turn jello & man they are shaking. I have a funny way of looking stupid in an almost ditzy-like way. But that's me. I like making fun of myself once in awhile. If I don't know the answer, I politely say "I don't know the answer, sir". I don't bluff my way to recitations.


Somebody told me that law students are a bit strange. We are strange. We function in a crazy way for the lack of sleep and sanity perhaps. Alcohol and coffee intoxicated us. Haaaay.

I miss those crazy crazy law days. I am trying to decide if I want to go back to school next term. Since I have no choice but to move to another school, I'm thinking of this as a blessing. The new environment might do me some good. I hope the crowd's better this time. From the kwentos of my friends, it's a better mix there. I hope so.

For now I've to continue building my portfolio, my big break will come next time. It's a big industry but now I know where I really want to be. From here everything will be clear... well one thing at a time.