they only take a fabulous vacation. I'll be back. I'll be back. I just needed my drive back. I haven't recovered from that so-called break-up. I've been trying to shop for 3 days to find that comfort but heck. Shopping summary as of today 1 roll of Carolina's ribbon on sale for P50, 1 pair of Nike rubber shoes, 1 pair of Matthews red flats, 1 pair of Lewre brown pumps, 1 studded bib necklace, 1 leaf-print top from Greenhills, my new calling cards. I'm still not over it. I still cry every chance I have bcos it's partly frustrating and shit at the same time. ---
Last Saturday I had a good laugh with one of my bestfriends. We stuffed our faces with burgers and the shake shake fries from Mcdonalds. I went home with a little cute smile... but still not like my old fabulous self.
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I haven't touched my camera... well except my cameraphone bcos I don't feel like shooting. Tonight I cried seeing my schoolpics. At the end of the day it was my own pride at stake. I had so much emotional, physical and mental investment in this endeavor. At one point I love it to death... that's probably the reason why I'm still hurt right now. But I'm not ready to move on yet. My old wings were broken. I'm still mending them as a sew one part at a time. I will have new wings soon... but I've to wait when I'm ready to fly with them.
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The tears never stop and I don't understand why.
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So this brings me to the things I do when I'm super sad
1) Cut, cut, cut... I used to have my own scrapbook but when I went to lawschool I never had the chance to do it
2) Eat - frenchfries!!!! My ultimate comfort food
3) Drink - alcohol until intox heaven
4) Cry - especially when I'm taking a bath. It cleanses my soul (kuno!)
5) Take a bath and stay there until kingdom come
6) Look at photographs
7) Email brigade to my girlfriends here and there
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