Ooh, some random realization here. 
I don't want to wake up beside one man in the same bed for the rest of my life. I'm scared to face that one day he might not be there anymore. When you raise your bed a little bit higher than the pillow, there's just an empty space. You would think he just went to the loo or went to work early. But then you realize he's not coming back. That sucks.
I don't want to wake up beside one man in the same bed for the rest of my life. I'm scared to face that one day he might not be there anymore. When you raise your bed a little bit higher than the pillow, there's just an empty space. You would think he just went to the loo or went to work early. But then you realize he's not coming back. That sucks. ---
I told someone the other night that I'm scared to get married. I don't want to marry if I would have it my way. I started thinking about it in high school and it never changed. What's new is that this time around I'm open to the idea of settling not marrying. I could be with someone without the benefit of marriage (so the living-in set-up kind siguro) and we could be in that kind of relationship even without kids. We would travel the world, take photos of each other, talk about everything-under-the-sun before we sleep, laugh at our eccentricities and play dress up in the morning before we go to work.
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He doesn't have to look in a certain way. Okay, okay I admit he has to be someone you could kiss naman. (But I like guys with nice teeth, as in nice.) He doesn't have to work for a certain field, basta passionate okay na yun. I have to feel some sense of security with the guy. This is rare, ah! We're not talking about finances here but when he's there you just feel safe parang that kind of feeling when you're "at home". Charrie and I were talking about this last week. Haha.
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One more thing, he breaks your routine cos he introduces things you will never do on your own. Being with this kind of person makes you discover some part of yourself you never knew it existed (At fun yun!). I was once with a guy who brought out my dark side (meaning my weak side) and it felt so good just letting down your barriers one by one. Then I was with this guy who made me rediscover my good side. He tamed me in a lot of ways. We ended the relationship bcos I wanted to be single and free again.
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Ohh, so here I am single, free and HAPPY. I miss those days na when it's okay to have messy hair around this person. I miss those days when it's okay to cuddle and snuggle. I miss those days when it's okay not to be yourself sometimes.
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For now, I better go and study my law books are waiting for me. HAHA.
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