STRANGE *

Sometime I wonder why do I have to meet certain people only to lose them in the end. I'm pretty emotional with people because I have a two-fold dilemma. I either have the tendency to be attached to them or be detached in some sense. Sometimes you want to shut people out of your life bcos once you get to know them, you have to open yourself up to them. (That includes letting them in your life by all means.) Here comes my attachment and trust issues. That's the reason why I am partly warm and cold to other people. It's that feeling of detachment which shields ME from the hurt of what comes with most relationships - betrayal, blah blah and the possibility of ending the relationship. It is one's defense mechanism - building your walls. I think I'm pretty good at it.

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My roomate is leaving for the US by October because of her mom. I cannot help but feel sad because she's like a sister to me na. I love little sisters maybe because I never had one. I feel I have a sister when I have roomates! She has been my roomate for about 1 1/2 years and I feel sad everytime I even remember that she's going to leave soon. Haaaay. So now you just want to shut people out of your life. ..

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Minsan bakit mo pa talaga sila nakikilala kasi masasaktan ka kapag umalis na sila.

Sana dumaan nalang sila sa buhay mo na para kang wala nalang pakialam, para okay lang.

Pero ang buhay hindi ganoon, diba?

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Every person you meet along the way teaches you something. Each person makes you get to know something about yourself or about the world. They just touch you in so many ways though you may not know it right away. You have to surrender and to embrace these beautiful strangers bcos you learn from them and from that experience. Nothing is permanent. Nothing really lasts, noh? So just embrace the moment. Enjoy the company of these people while they are still around.

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