I hate statistics (knowing the digits and being part of the digits). It sucks having to feel the mortality rate in law school. I recall we were 9 sections in 1st year and now we're down to 4. We were 30 in the class, then down to almost half. Last sem we were 10 regular students, now down to 7. The class size dropped for many various reasons - both personal and academic. I can really feel the pressure. I always tell people I'm usually steady in academics, I don't push myself too hard bcos I really want to enjoy the experience.(Yeah, I wish to keep my sanity) But in law school, it's hard not to push yourself to your limit bcos it is a very competitive environment. People eat you. Tangena. They eat me 3/4 of the time. I just let them.
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Sad.sad.sad. I feel lonelier now than ever bcos some of my closest blockmates have to leave for academic reasons. It's shit. Tough shit. Aside from the competition factor, I experience very short-lived friendships in law school. The class size dropped semester by semester. I know I didn't go to school to have best friends. But of course I want to be with people who would care for me, etc. Believe me. I never felt more alone. I'm really a loner and I don't complain... but having no one to laugh with for a good 5 minutes is indeed crazy naman. I have a new section this coming schoolyear since we have to merge blocks. Goodbye to all the beautiful people. Well they started leaving last semester.
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Like what my best friend tells me when asked about law school...
"I'm still here".
I don't have to love what I'm doing, I just need to do it!
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Statistics from my bestie:
They were 250 in freshman year, now down to 97 in her junior year.F*ck it.
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