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I've got a debt at the back of my head. Some backlog in some of my subjects. Not so good midterm grades which I think I deserve cos I've lost focus. I'm getting tired of studying and all the law school thing is in fact draining me to some point. I needed a break which I assumed I was going to get at the end of the semester. It turns out that I'm not getting THAT much-needed vacation to the US (remember?). Maybe I'm just tired of achieving. Period. I'm tired of living it up to other people's expectations. I'm tired of being a good daughter. I'm tired of being SUPER GIRL. I'm tired of having to constantly prove myself to anybody. I'm tired of just making other people's dreams happen. For the first time in my life, I think I could finally say I'm loving it. But I'm losing FOCUS at the same time. I'm getting tired. I've been driven for the most part of my life because I didn't want to become a statistic. I don't know what's happening. I realized that napapagod din pala ako. I bounce back when I fall but this time why am I letting myself go? A lot of things going through my head. (This isn't quarter-life crisis yet!) Even my so-called manic depression is getting in my head. I think it's cyclical and this is it. Tama na ang pag-talk shit ko. I'm also shaping up for a prospective new relationship since it has been awhile since my last one. I'm not seeing anybody in particular but I realized maybe I'm now ready. I have to attract the right things so I have to think of these positive things. I'll get my life back and my old self back - soon.

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Thanks to Paolo who gave me a copy of the Harajuku Lover 2005 concert of my idol, Gwen Stefani. Watching the 1 1/2 hour vid made me really happy! I was pretty disappointed with the few costume changes but the show was coooool! Here are my top picks! From classic pin-up girl to Harajuku street style. She can pull it off! No wonder she's a forever favorite. I know she's a Madonna rip-off but who isn't in love with Madonna anyway?!